Jonas is 3!

On September 16th, Jonas turned 3 years old!
Jonas, I am so proud of how smart, silly, and caring you are. You have done so well with the big changes this year and I love how you love school and your little sister. I am so lucky to be your Mommy and I love you so much!

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Jonas picked his own birthday outfit!

On the 17th, we celebrated with a Thomas the Tank Engine Party. It was really fun!

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Happy third birhday to my baby boy!!

Thank you <3

Tuesday night and Wednesday morning I spent in the ER and then the hospital with a postpartum hemmorhage, which was surprising and very disconcerting, since delivery was such a dream. I am so thankful for so many things.

I’m thankful for access to quality medical care and to have insurance and enough money that I didn’t have to consider money when making the decision about when to go to the ER. In some places, medical students are not required to learn how to do D&Cs without general anesthesia, as they are generally done with in hospitals, and the places they do them without are generally clinics where abortions are provided. Though I had the general, I could have elected not to if I hadn’t been able to pump but wanted to breastfeed (more on that later), if I had health conditions that would make the general a bad idea, or if it hadn’t worked for me for some reason. Medical providers should know how to do medical procedures and I’m glad they did.

I’m thankful I have a partner who encouraged me to go to the ER and that I listened to my gut about going. I said to Jared, “This isn’t normal.” If you ever have that thought, please go be seen!

I’m thankful I have in-laws who could take care of Jonas at a moment’s notice. I’m thankful I knew he would be safe and loved with them and that Josie would be safe and loved with Jared while I was getting care.

I’m thankful I had access to compassionate care providers who understood how important it was to keep my baby with me as much as possible while I was receiving care. When I finallly saw an OB, the first thing she said when she walked in was, “I’m going to do my best to keep baby on you” and she did. She is a mom to an 11 month old and in the process of weaning her baby, and without my saying anything, she said, “I know you’re worried about breastfeeding.” She gave me a plan for timing for pumping and feeding so that Josie could have my milk while the anesthesia was leaving my system. I had my baby on my chest during pelvic exams and being wheeled through hallways.  I was only away from her for 20ish minutes while getting an ultrasound and for a couple hours while I was in the operating room and immediately after recovery.

I’m thankful that my doula training and experience have taught me how to advocate for myself in a medical setting. Though the providers I saw were all wonderful, as has been my experience at Kaiser previously, getting to them was slow and filled with bureaucracy. I had to revisit the desk twice after checking in to communicate the severity of the situation. It still took hours to see a triage nurse, then more hours to see the ER doc, hours to have an ultrasound, an hour to have it read, then a bit more time to see an OB and wait for an operating room to be available.

I’m thankful for my friends. I posted in my local moms group and immediately, I had friends willing to bring milk for Josie, bottles, or whatever else we needed. Though we didn’t end up needing them, it made me feel so loved to know they were so willing to help.

I’m thankful for my awesome doula, who provided information and support via text and was even willing to come be with me if needed, even though I was more than three weeks postpartum and she was definitely not on call for me anymore. If you have ever thought of a doula as a hippie thing or some luxury, this would have changed your mind.

I’m thankful we have the resources for me to be at home with our kids. The postpartum period really does need to be a time for healing– again, it isn’t just hippie bs. Medically, even after what seems like the smoothest normal delivery possible, your body is still doing a lot you can’t see for weeks. It is insane that some women in this country have to return to work as soon as they do, and some women could have experienced the same situation and not have a legally protected job to return to if they had missed work for it.

I’m so thankful for my sweet babies. It was scary and stressful, but Josie is worth it.

Thank you, thank you universe and friends and family. Let’s make some changes for the people who don’t have the access to these things I am so thankful for.

Jonas’s First Day of Preschool

On August 29, we all went to Jonas’s preschool to visit for an hour. He was sad to leave and excited when we told him he got to go for his real first day the next day.

On the 30th, when he came downstairs, Jonas was surprised and excited to see his new hedgehog backpack. He loves hedgehogs and he wanted to put it on. He was sad he had to take it off for the car ride.

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When we got there, he walked right in and barely said bye. He went right to the playdoh table. Jared and Josie and I got breakfast and walked around for a while and then went back to get him. As soon as Jonas saw us he yelled “I’m not done with preschool!” He wanted to stay and have lunch. He was excited to go back again today.

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I’m so glad he loved it and I hope he keeps enjoying it just as much! I’m so proud of my big boy!

Welcome Josie!!!!!

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20160817_073510Joseline Rocket was born on August 13, 2016 at 10:02 am weighing 7 pounds, 13.9 Oz and measuring 20 inches long. We are absolutely, totally in love!!

Disneyland!

Grandma and Papa took us to Disneyland for an early birthday present for Jonas and it was so much fun!

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Jonas was definitely a little more tired and cranky by the end of the day, but he perked back up for dinner at the Rainforest Cafe.

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He loved the rides, even though he wasn’t sure about Pirates of the Carribean. He asked, “Will the pirates eat me?” and “Where’s the ground?” He still enjoyed it, though, even the little drops!

He got to pick a Mickey doll to bring home, and he loves it!

Thanks, Grandma and Papa, for a great day!

Strawberry Festival 2016

We got to spend 8 days in West Virginia during the Strawberry Festival and we had such a good time. It rained for a lot of the week, but even on rainy days, it was nice to sit around and relax as a family.

Jonas got really into tractors. At first he thought this one was too loud but eventually he wanted to sit on it while it was off. During the Grand Feature Parade, when all the tractors went by, he wanted to know what they were all called and told me all the green ones were John Deeres.

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He loved the carnival. At first we weren’t sure if he was having fun on the rides because he looked so serious– like he was working so hard to really steer them.

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Eventually, he lightened up a little and even smiled.

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We saw a lot of friends and some family and enjoyed some gross but delicious carnival food. It was cool to see how far my town has come– there are people there working hard to make it a more welcoming and enjoyable place.

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It’s always special to see Jonas and my Grandma together.

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It’s sad that we probably won’t visit again until next summer, and it’s hard to believe when we do we will have two kiddos to show around!

February and March 2016!

We have been so busy the last couple months I haven’t had a chance to blog about any of it! And this is just a taste of what we’ve been up to.

Jonas’s hair was getting long so we went to get it cut. When I told him we were going to, he said, “It’s haircut day?!” I was so proud of him– he sat in the seat all by himself and giggled the whole time! And so handsome!

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The sun shade doesn’t work very well on the window, but Jonas hates the sun in his eyes so he told me he would hold it instead.

 

 

 

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March 2 was Aunt Sadie’s birthday so we went to the California Science Center for a play date with her and the girl she nannies.

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Bubby came to visit for a week! We did so many fun things and Jonas loved it. He told me Bubby is his best friend.

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Jonas had his physical for starting preschool in the fall. When the doctor walked in, Jonas said, “The gown is open in the back so you can use your stethoscope,” and the doctor was so impressed he didn’t even know what to say!

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Jonas was not as big a fan of the Easter Bunny this year. Last year he kept hugging him and telling him secrets and he cried when he had to get off his lap. This year, he was excited while we were in line, but then when we got up to the bunny, he asked me to come with him and when I said I would be back by the camera, he started to get upset and said he didn’t want to sit with him. So he sat next to him instead.

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We went to an Ontario Reign game with a guy from my hometown who moved out here. Jonas loved that he could scream when everyone else cheered.

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One day, Jared was still sleeping and Jonas crawled up and said, “Take a picture of me with Daddy!”

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We don’t usually eat eggs because we don’t like how chickens are treated at the big farms, but we found a neighbor with chickens in his yard! So we’ve been enjoying eating them and Jonas got to dye eggs this year. Our friend Sami’s sister lives in San Jose and Sami was visiting her from the UK, and made a stop at our house for a few days! I didn’t take any pictures, but Sami took the one of me and Jonas.

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Yesterday was Easter and we had a great day! Jonas liked his Easter basket but he was most excited about the jelly beans in the eggs. After breakfast, I hid some eggs for him and he liked finding them. He hid them for me and when I opened my eyes, he said, “I hid the eggs! There’s one there and there and there!” and pointed to all the hiding places. In the afternoon we went to Aunt Shannon and Uncle Chris’s house and it was great. Jonas ran around with his cousins and found eggs and ate way too much sugar.

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Going straight for a Daniel Tiger book

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Jelly beans! I was glad I only put 2 or 3 in each of his 6 eggs.

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Shaking eggs like maracas

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He didn’t want to stand up for a picture– he wanted to sit in the basket instead.

And the other thing we’ve been up to…yay!!

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Our Year So Far

A few weeks ago, we visited an awesome indoor play space called LOL Kids Club. Jonas LOVED it. There was a ball pit and tons of stuff to climb and a little trampoline and toys. We stayed and played for four hours!

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Someone hit our car on the way home. Thankfully no one was hurt!! We still don’t have our car back though. Jonas  was very excited to see firefighters and he asked them “Are you a fire fighter?! Do you fight fires?!” They even gave him his own helmet!

Jonas went to the dentist for the second time and he did such a great job! They were all so impressed with how well he listened when they told him to open and close his mouth while they did his cleaning!

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Even though we stopped nursing in August, I was still bouncing Jonas to sleep in the carrier before most of his naps. It was getting tiring for me so we decided it was time for him to take naps by himself. He had a really hard time at first. The first day, we went out for sushi after and Jared asked “Did you have any dreams?” Jonas said, “I had a dream that Mama goed in the other room and I cried for her to come back.” I asked, “Did you feel proud that you fell asleep by yourself?” He said, “No, I felt sad that you left.” It broke my heart!! He’s been doing a lot better though, and the past two days has fallen asleep by himself without crying at all. Yesterday he even got up and used the potty by himself!! Here I am crying our last nap in the carrier:

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I want to remember this view forever!!

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Since we’ve been without a car, I’ve been trying to come up with fun things for us to do at home. We made Valentines! Our friends are coming over on Monday for a Valentines Play Date!

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101 Revisions and Plans!

Happy New Year!

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I’ve been working on my 101 in 1001 list for 2 years now, and it wraps up September of this year! I’ve done 59 things from the list, leaving 42 to do, which seems like a lot, but I’m pretty proud of the ones I’ve done– especially getting my doula certification and finishing my novel! I figured this was a good time to look back on my list, see what I still want to do, and what is feasible, and make some changes. Anything I changed, I tried to keep the spirit of the original goal, and either make it more realistic, or just more reflective of what I currently want to do. For example, “Relearn basic Spanish” was a little too broad, so I made it more specific– “listen to Think and Learn Spanish CD and read book,” and a trip to the UK isn’t going to happen in the next 9 months, so I changed it to writing letters to the people I wanted to visit. So here’s what’s on the list!

  1. make t-shirt quilt
  2. send novel to 10 agents/publishers
  3. Camp NaNoWriMo for 2nd novel
  4. listen to Think and Learn Spanish CD and read book
  5. frame orange crate prints
  6. have carpet professionally cleaned
  7. send letters to Amelia and Sami
  8. go to Quaker meeting
  9. go to UU service
  10. Do Nancy Bardacke’s 9 week home program
  11. do yoga at least once a week
  12. turn window seat into toy chest
  13. go to Deer Park
  14. go to an IE Dharma Punx meeting or have a meditation day with friends
  15. send postcards or letters to Lindsey, Laura, and Elizabeth
  16. visit WV
  17. tech free weekend
  18. at home date- movie and dinner theme
  19. make a will
  20. donate a toy to Loma Linda chidren’s hospital
  21. hang up diplomas
  22. get ring insurance
  23. clean out office
  24. “just because” gifts for Jer (3/3)
  25. go to family yoga class with Jonas (Kids yoga video)
  26. have family photos taken
  27. drive in movie as a family
  28. 4 date nights (2/4)
  29. get a massage
  30. use the pool at least once a week during summer
  31. take Sasha to dog park
  32. go to the beach
  33. get into 3 new bands (1/3)
  34. write a love letter to Jer
  35. Read 30 books
  36. go to another hockey game
  37. play street hockey in the driveway
  38. (personal)
  39. record listening night
  40. surprise Jer with one of his favorite meals
  41. take Sasha to get stitches out
  42. Take juicer out and make healthy juices

 

Christmas 2015

Jared and I started throwing up the night of the 23rd and on Christmas Eve we were both miserable. Jonas still wasn’t feeling great and thankfully was happy to snuggle and watch Thomas the Tank Engine holiday specials all morning. My awesome father-in-law brought us Gatorade and Saltines. I ended up going to urgent care because I couldn’t keep any fluids down at all. Jonas was great the whole time and the nurses gave Jared a glove to blow up for him and printed some Santa coloring sheets.

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Sadie and Hernando still came over that evening– very brave! Thankfully, in the morning, Jared and I were both feeling much better, and could actually enjoy watching Jonas open presents. He had been asking for a candy cane and I kept telling him maybe Santa would put one in his stocking. He did!

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We didn’t get to go celebrate at Aunt Shannon’s house on Christmas and we were all disappointed. Jonas had been asking to see his cousins for a few days. It was so fun to see him get excited about opening presents, though, and he did a great job tearing the wrapping paper off himself! Santa came through and brought him his Muddle and Match: Imagine book!

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Sadie got him a vet kit and book and Mommy and Daddy got him a doctor kit and book and he loves pretending to be a doctor and do “surgery” on the puppy he named Finchy.

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Jonas liked playing with wrapping paper just as much as he liked playing with his presents, I think.

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We had been too sick to read it the night before, so Jared and Jonas did the annual reading of The Night Before Christmas on Christmas evening.

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Jared’s Aunt Lisa passed away on Christmas evening, so we were all really sad about that. It was definitely not the Christmas we had planned but I was still thankful to get to spend it with my family and to be surrounded with love.

Jonas forgot about the chocolate Santa in his stocking for a few days, but then remembered. I told him he could have it after dinner that night and as soon as dinner was over, he asked for it. They were always Aunt Sadie’s favorite and I think he liked it too!

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